ME ;
CHRISTIEJANEPILLAY
17 years going on 18
07 MAY 89
GREEN
saint theresa's convent
one bernadette
two bernadette
three deirdre
four deirdre
ngee ann poly business studies
TB 05
st ANTHONY'S church
Lord's Vineyard
AMPLIFY
passion play 2006
st john vianney play
five golden rings play
wishings
i want those GORGEOUS set of colourpencils that have 120 colours, but is like $298.40. art friend.i want those pretty stamps me and AMAZING saw at taka.
i want that black ipod VIDEO!
i want that pretty zara knit top.
i want that striped mango top
i want that mondo striped purple shoe
i want a new handbag.
i want plenty of SKITTLES and M&M's!
i want a new pair of BIRKENSTOCKs.
i want abs like nicole schnerzinger or fergie.
i want to revamp my room.
i want that $599 casio 6 mega pixel camera.
i want to learn to play the drums, and xi yao and charles and jo and keith and william can teach me.
i want a new pair of HAVAINNAS. soon lah.
i want be able to take INTERNATIONAL ECONOMICS next year.
i want LOVE that lasts forever.
AND AMAZING GAVE HER THAT!
REMINISCING
July 2006
August 2006
September 2006
October 2006
November 2006
December 2006
January 2007
February 2007
June 2007
LOVES OF MY LIFE (:
adeline'
angelyn'
avlyn'
antaeus'
bernard'
claudine'
charles'
charm'
dara'
deon'
dora'
dinesh'
drey'
jasmine'
jeremy'
joscelyn'
beloved cousin'
karmila'
laurie'
larris'
lexine'
manda'
melissa'
nathalieROCKS'
nessa'
nini'
peiwen'
sean'
shabin'
sheryl'
shyla'
stephy'
suemaine'
vankelly'
yishan'
yolanda'
SPEAK UP.
mocking
* Sunday, October 29
QUIZ! ((:
5 snacks I enjoy:
- ICE CREAM. (BEN AND JERRY's)
- CHOCOLATES!
- JAWBREAKERS!
- JOLLY RANCHER LOLLIES.
- CHOCOLATE CREPES.
5 songs I know all the words to:
- black dresses
- chasing cars
- watch the world
- rawkfist
- BARNEY SONG. (:
5 things I would do with 100 million dollars:
- TRAVEL TO EUROPE AND AUSSIE AND TAIWAN AND JAPAN.
- the CHURCH tiles needs some changing...
- buy something for EVERYONE i know.
- GO ON A MAJOR SHOPPING SPREE WITH LOVELY PEOPLE!
- go put 99 MILLION in the bank and SUCK the bank out of its interests rate scheme!
5 places I would run away to:
- CHURCH.
- PHONE BUDDY's place.
- THAT CORNY GIRL's place.
- XI YAO's place.
(ITS IN MALAYSIA BY THE WAY.)
- AND AND AND, I CANNOT SAY THE LAST ONE.
I DONT WANT YOU'LL TO FIND ME
WHEN I DISAPPEAR! NO NO NO.
5 things I would never wear:
- imitation goods that even LOOK FAKE.
- NOTHING.
- clogs: the ones that CHINA peeps wear!
- HIGH and loooong socks, like in primary school.
- UGLY WATCHES.
5 Things that turn you off:
- BITCHES.
- BACKSTABBERS.
- GOLDFISH!
- WEIRDOS.
- DURIANS!
5 Things that turn you on:
- PEOPLE WITH DAMN PRETTY EYELASHES! ((:
- GOD-LOVER.
- PUPPY-LOVER.
- PRETTY THINGS THAT I SEE WHEN SHOPPING!
- ICE CREAM!
5 bad habits that you will regret later on:
- DOING NOTHING BUT WATCH DVDs THE WHOLE DAY!
- STUDYING SO BLOODY MUCH!
- USING THE COM FOR TOO LONG.
- DEPENDING ON MY CLASSMATES TO SAVE ME!
(like sooo many times already?)
- BULLYING MY SISTER.
5 biggest joys:
- MY PHONE!
- MY PRECIOUS CHURCH FRIENDS!
- MY WONDERFUL CLASS!
- SKITTLES AND M&M's!
- GOD.
5 Famous People I would Love to Date:
- JESSE MCCALF.
- BILL GATES.
- JOHNNY DEPP.
- ROWAN ATKINSON.
- PRINCE YUL.
5 people to do this quiz:
ANYONE.
9:24:00 pm
* Sunday, October 22
Written Business Communications:
Pre-tutorial Homework
I am a changed person because of the Saint John Vianney play.
This play was developed by my church, Church of Saint Anthony, to help raise funds. Since they needed help in the production crew, I took up the position of Production Manager. Little did I know that what I was going to experience could change my perspective of life.
When I joined, I had to cope with stress from school, and the tasks assigned, such as contacting various organizations and churches, to get them to support our play. I also had to pay attention to the welfare of the cast and crew, ensuring that meals and transport had to be taken care of. The handling of the tickets and money was also left to me.
There were times when I just broke down and cried, because the stress was just overwhelming. However, I was not the only one feeling this way. Maybe the cast was not overburdened, but the inside job with production was dire.
Many friendships developed through this experience, and I will not forget what my Director, a close friend of mine, told me.
“The way she accepts challenges and never gives up makes me think of how great a servant she will be.”
This experience has made me realize how fortunate I am. I learnt that not everyone has the luxury of friends, to guide them along in their journeys, and that I should cherish what I already have in life.
i did my report about SJV.
and it made me cry all over again.
alamak.
HAHA.
I MISS YOU GUYS PLENTY!
((:
6:12:00 pm
*
i don't know why.
miss jane doesn't put up a title for each of her posts.
but anyway.
i guess you all can guess who this is.
yes.
its the AMAZING one.
so here we are.
in her girly room.
and i'm going to post about something really important.
our pretty little secret.
and its called a scrapbook.
from this really pretty shop.
but its really expensive.
when we get our pay miss jane!
she is going to be working with me soon.
whoopie.
two more weeks.
and she will be working with me!
whoopie!
and she is stressing herself over her work now.
don't do la.
be lazy and talk to me please. thank you very much.
i think i should sign out now.
i'm getting really bored.
hurry miss jane!
talk to me!
love you plenty.
3:23:00 pm
* Saturday, October 21
DO YOU EVEN KNOW WHAT YOU'RE SAYING?
DO YOU EVEN KNOW
WHAT YOU'RE DOING IN THE FIRST PLACE?
ALL YOU DO IS POINT OUT PEOPLE'S FLAWS.
BUT YOU DONT EVEN TRY TO HELP THEM.
SOME PEOPLE LIKE HER JUST NEED HELP.
AND YOU CANT DENY HER OF THAT
JUST CAUSE OF ALL THAT SHE'S DONE TO HURT YOU.
AND I WONT DENY HER OF MY FREINDSHIP,
BECUASE I KNOW I CAN HELP HER.
EVERYONE NEEDS THEIR FAIR SHARE OF FRIENDS.
SO WHY CANT SHE HAVE THAT LUXURY TOO?
JUST BECAUSE I GO OUT WITH HER
MORE THAN I DO WITH YOU,
DOESNT MEAN THAT YOU'RE NOT
AS IMPORTANT A FRIEND AS SHE IS ALRIGHT.
AND YOU HAVE GOT TO UNDERSTAND THAT,
AND NOT GET JEALOUS ALL THE TIME.
MAYBE ITS CAUSE SHE IS WILLING TO TRY HARD
ON THIS FRIENDSHIP THAT SHE AND I HAVE.
BECAUSE SHE'S ALWAYS THE ONE
ASKING ME OUT MOST OF THE TIME.
I KNOW WHY I COULDNT SEE
THAT SHE WAS TRYING EARLIER ON.
BECAUSE I WASNT BEING A PROPER FRIEND TO HER.
SHE NEEDS ALL THE HELP SHE CAN GET AT THIS POINT.
AND DONT GET ALL SARCASTIC WITH ME.
YOU HAVE TO UNDERSTAND YOURSELF
BEFORE YOU BECOME A FRIEND TO OTHERS, T
O TRY TO UNDERSTAND THEM.
AND DO YOU REALLY
UNDERSTAND WHO YOU ARE?
DO YOU KNOW YOUR PURPOSE?
DO YOU KNOW WHY GOD MADE YOU?
WHY HE PUT YOU ON THIS PLANET?
DO YOU?
BECAUSE I DO.
AND ITS FULFILLING TO KNOW
HOW IMPORTANT YOU ARE TO HIM.
AND HIS REASONS FOR BRINGING YOU INTO THIS WORLD.
THATS ALL I HAVE TO SAY.
GO PONDER AND REFLECT.
AND THEN TELL ME THAT
SHE'S NOT TRYING
AND THAT IM BEING SELFISH.
3:51:00 pm
* Wednesday, October 18
OOOH.
i think it is VERY important
to blog about OUR wonderful day yesterday.
YES YES.
ME and MY AMAZING ONE
went OUT to TOWN
to SHOP
till we DROPPED.
LITERALLY.
i think it is VERY important
to blog about OUR wonderful day yesterday.
YES YES.
ME and MY AMAZING ONE
went OUT to TOWN
to SHOP
till we DROPPED.
LITERALLY.
the stuff that just tempt us so much.just to buy it,
and make our phones look OHSOMUCH prettier!
((:
and i think its meaningful.
because ahhh.
she's an angel.
sent down by GOD.
she was just trying to be an idiot.reallly.
emo,
sher's favourite AHLIAN pose,
and then her dumb smile.
and this was the pretty brown sugar cube.
and the pretty white sugar cube.
i took the brown,
and she took the white.
but we switched afterwards
because she found the brown one more appealing,
and i found the white one more appealing.
HAHA.
we're nuts,
we know.
and we went high in SONY!
i took the brown,
and she took the white.
but we switched afterwards
because she found the brown one more appealing,
and i found the white one more appealing.
HAHA.
we're nuts,
we know.
and we went high in SONY!
OMG.this vegetable ah.
i swear,
was damn gross la please!
the wasabi cream was alllll over it,
and i nearly made nessa eat it,
but it was too HOT!
this is what happens when nessa takes a sip of the lime and mint soda.
she was making funny faces all the way.
because she felt that it was
way too sour for her own good.
and i hate the mint leaves.
they kept getting sucked up the straw,
and kept having to spit them out.
they were so tasteless!
luckily i have at least one GLAM picture of you up hee.
if not i think you'll just scream lah.
HAHAHA.
and this was the
WONDERFUL spread of the WASABI CRISPS.
i tell you.
its quite hot la maybe!
if you add the cream.
HAHA.
but it was deli-WOOOOOOO-cious.
WONDERFUL spread of the WASABI CRISPS.
i tell you.
its quite hot la maybe!
if you add the cream.
HAHA.
but it was deli-WOOOOOOO-cious.
and the VANESSA DANIELLE LEE LI TING wore these pair of FUGLY specs to town.
all cause her DUMB contacts broke in HALF.
that PICTURE there was of the
TOMATO from the sandwich that
AMAZING ate at MC CAFE.
and i had to FORCE her to eat it okay!
all because she HATES veggies!
HAHHAHA.
so.
i think that we should make it a weekly habit.
dont you think so?
and remember we need to find our
PERFECT sc------k.
so that we can have nice stuff in it.
speak in code all.
but she surely understands!
(:
I LOVE YOU AMAZING ONE!
i think that some people should think before they ask me dumb questions and get me all pissed at nothing.whatever.its not worth my precious energy.
1:05:00 pm
* Saturday, October 14
i dont know whats going on anymore.
neither does HER and HER and HER.
we all dont know.
and we really want to help,
and be close to you.
so that you can share your problems with us too,
instead of it always being just THEM,
and not US.
im speaking on behalf of US.
WE are always hope that you are okay.
and WE worry all the time.
but its as though WE are transparent.
you dont seem to be trying at all.
and when you say you need time,
WE give it to you.
but there's no results from all that waiting.
you tell US if all the waiting will pay off.
because we are willing to wait.
you'd rather talk to people who are mere aquaintances,
and tell them everything,
than tell stuff to the people
who have known you for years.
WE have never betrayed you
or anything,
so there's no reason for you to NOT trust US.
FROM one of the HERs:
whats so great about THEM,
that you think that WE dont offer?
you choose your friends,
and dont even choose properly.
WE try so hard to lift you up,
but WE are always second or last.
so its not only me please.
or lexine.
its all of us.
we really want to help AMAZING.
11:35:00 pm
* Friday, October 13
OOH.
BIRTHDAY PARTY!
HAHA.
we all met at the BROKEN bench,
that one that LARRIS LIEW
broke because he sat on it!
then father asked us to attend mass.
after mass,
the whole gang of us went over
to sean's place for dinner yesterday!
desmondng,
larris,
danny,
sean,
lexine,
avlyn,
anthony,
antaeus,
keith,
and me.
not forgetting the birthday boy's parents of course.
cause aunty judith pitied sean all.
damn funny.
she cooked spagetti
and salad
and sausages
and french fries
and nuggets.
we had so much to eat,
and were damn full.
then larris,
being himself,
was eating lettuce leaves with sapgetti sauce and cheese.
and aunty judith called it PHILLIPINO style!
HAHAHHAHA.
and after all that eating,
laughing at that moment
wasnt such a good idea after all.
we didnt stay for all that long actually.
left around 9 plus,
then some went to play pool,
the reat went HOME,
including me.
the time we spend apart
will make our love grow stronger
but it hurts so bad
i cant take it any longer
i wanna grow old with you
i wanna die lying in your arms
i wanna grow old with you
i wanna be looking in your eyes
i wanna be there for you
sharing in everything you do
i wanna grow old with you.
i wanna die lying in your arms
i wanna grow old with you
i wanna be looking in your eyes
i wanna be there for you
sharing in everything you do
i wanna grow old with you.
im scared.
some people are just in the midst of
DISAPPEARING
totally from the face of this earth.
and intend to live on some other planet.
they are so packed
that they dont know what to do.
and i feel so helpless.
i really do.
im trying to help.
but with what?
most of the things are so out of my league.
the kind of things that
i would not have the right to help out in.
and sometimes,
all i can do is give that person one big hug.
and hope that they will be alright.
and it actually works.
that's what we need sometimes,
a hug to cheer us up,
and make all our troubles go away,
for the time being though.
why cant we just cooperate?
and help each other out.
thats what friends are for.
thats what friends do.
with my phone buddy,
on this topic.
and we said EVERYTHING out.
i mean,
isnt that what we're supposed to do?
be OPEN about everything?
that's what my phone buddy does.
i know that even if i change for the worst,
he will be there to help me and guide me.
i know that
the past and future
are not as important as the PRESENT.
and that he will always be there for me,
no matter how annoying i become,
because IRRITATING IS SPECIAL.
HAHA.
he said so himself.
right phone buddy?
the one where we talked about
the miniature shrubs in the bus,
and about beating around the bush.
THAT ONE.
and you better know that
i'll always be here for you TOO!
OOH.
I LOVE MY PHONE BUDDY BUNDLELOADS! ((:
this song's chorus is for you.
cause i know my GOD saved the day
some people are just in the midst of
DISAPPEARING
totally from the face of this earth.
and intend to live on some other planet.
they are so packed
that they dont know what to do.
and i feel so helpless.
i really do.
im trying to help.
but with what?
most of the things are so out of my league.
the kind of things that
i would not have the right to help out in.
and sometimes,
all i can do is give that person one big hug.
and hope that they will be alright.
and it actually works.
that's what we need sometimes,
a hug to cheer us up,
and make all our troubles go away,
for the time being though.
why cant we just cooperate?
and help each other out.
thats what friends are for.
thats what friends do.
tell the world that JESUS lives
tell the world now
tell the world now
tell the world that HE died for them
tell the world that lives again.
i had a very nice conversationtell the world now
tell the world now
tell the world that HE died for them
tell the world that lives again.
AND,
why are we so AFRAID
to tell people how we feel about them?
if there is something
we dont like about someone,
like their actions or words.
why cant we just pluck up the courage
to let them know,
that the things that they are doing
dont appeal to them,
or worse,
annoy them.
we cant just keep it in,
and then pretend nothing happened the next day.
they have to know sooner or later.
someone is bound to get hurt.
truth hurts.
and you cant escape that.
sometimes some people are not aware
that what they are doing is hurting others.
thats why they need friends to let them know.
ignoring the problem,
will just make things worse.
trust me,
its happened before.
you get annoyed with someone
over just a mere comment that the person made.
and because you dont like it,
you get angry.
thats the worse case scenario.
where ANGER turns to HATE.
its a very strong word.
not to be trifled with.
this song is for anyone
who feels that no one loves you.
know that YOU GOT ME AND JESUS.
when there's no where else to turn
all your bridges have been burned
feels like you've hit rock bottom
dont give up its not the end
dont bend up your heart again
when you feel like no one
understands where you are
someone loves you
even when you dont think so
dont you know
you got me and JESUS
by your side
through the fire
in your own
you got me and JESUS
after all that we've been through
by now you know i've doubted too
but everytime my head was in my hands
you said to me
someone loves you
even when you dont think so
dont you know
you got me and JESUS
by your side
through the fire
in your own
you got me and JESUS.
why are we so AFRAID
to tell people how we feel about them?
if there is something
we dont like about someone,
like their actions or words.
why cant we just pluck up the courage
to let them know,
that the things that they are doing
dont appeal to them,
or worse,
annoy them.
we cant just keep it in,
and then pretend nothing happened the next day.
they have to know sooner or later.
someone is bound to get hurt.
truth hurts.
and you cant escape that.
sometimes some people are not aware
that what they are doing is hurting others.
thats why they need friends to let them know.
ignoring the problem,
will just make things worse.
trust me,
its happened before.
you get annoyed with someone
over just a mere comment that the person made.
and because you dont like it,
you get angry.
thats the worse case scenario.
where ANGER turns to HATE.
its a very strong word.
not to be trifled with.
this song is for anyone
who feels that no one loves you.
know that YOU GOT ME AND JESUS.
when there's no where else to turn
all your bridges have been burned
feels like you've hit rock bottom
dont give up its not the end
dont bend up your heart again
when you feel like no one
understands where you are
someone loves you
even when you dont think so
dont you know
you got me and JESUS
by your side
through the fire
in your own
you got me and JESUS
after all that we've been through
by now you know i've doubted too
but everytime my head was in my hands
you said to me
someone loves you
even when you dont think so
dont you know
you got me and JESUS
by your side
through the fire
in your own
you got me and JESUS.
with my phone buddy,
on this topic.
and we said EVERYTHING out.
i mean,
isnt that what we're supposed to do?
be OPEN about everything?
that's what my phone buddy does.
i know that even if i change for the worst,
he will be there to help me and guide me.
i know that
the past and future
are not as important as the PRESENT.
and that he will always be there for me,
no matter how annoying i become,
because IRRITATING IS SPECIAL.
HAHA.
he said so himself.
right phone buddy?
the one where we talked about
the miniature shrubs in the bus,
and about beating around the bush.
THAT ONE.
and you better know that
i'll always be here for you TOO!
OOH.
I LOVE MY PHONE BUDDY BUNDLELOADS! ((:
this song's chorus is for you.
cause i know my GOD saved the day
and i know HIS word never fails
and i know my GOD will wait for me
salvation is here.
and i know my GOD will wait for me
salvation is here.
7:00:00 pm
* Wednesday, October 11
i think that i am suppoed to write a super long post for that VANESSA DANIELLE LEE LI TING. UH-HUH. hahahhas.i think that she rocks plenty. because she always cracks lame jokes that make me laugh at her. like when she just knew about i-tunes. that was funny okay. asking me to shut up all. cause you knew what i was going to say right? haha. we had gelare yesterday which was OH-SO-FANTASTIC, some caramel thing, and CHOCOLATE OVERLOAD. haha.also because it was halfprice for waffles.
ANYWAY.
yeah. we didnt really get to know each other properly. cause it all started out WRONG. but we're trying to fix it right?
and yes. we think ALIKE. first the off-shoulder knit top, then the salad, then the mushrooms. what next? haha. and we REALLY should go shopping together.
OH, and i want to work at the SECRET place. you know. the place you got lost at. OH WHOOPS! i let the cat out of the bag! HAHA. yeah. then we can PARTY together at BEN AND JERRY'S. OOOLALA! and you better not bully me when you become my T-----R. HAHA. if you do that is. OOH.and remember to tell the M-----R for me! SOON! hahaha.
SOOO. i love my AMAZING plenty!
ill be there for you
when the rain starts to pour
ill be there for you
like ive been there before
ill be there for you
cause youre there for me too.
no one could ever know me
no one could ever see me
seems youre the only one who knows
what its like to be me
someone to face the day with
make it through the rest with
someone ill always laugh with
even at the worst im best with you
when the rain starts to pour
ill be there for you
like ive been there before
ill be there for you
cause youre there for me too.
no one could ever know me
no one could ever see me
seems youre the only one who knows
what its like to be me
someone to face the day with
make it through the rest with
someone ill always laugh with
even at the worst im best with you
4:31:00 pm
* Sunday, October 8
YESTERDAY WAS OH SO FUN!
went to marina for sheila's birthday.
OOH.
we were doing dumb things in the train and bus on the way there.
like goodness.
terrible.
then we reached, and sheila did too, and then the grandparents.
all around the same time.
so it was good.
then there was no parking space,
so when this car drove away,
charles ran across the road to stand at the lot,
"CHOP PLACE".
haha.
it was hilarious.
then we went to pay and go grab food!
wooooo!
live prawns were not behaving.
jumping here and there,
then we had to choice but to put the jumpy ones into the boiling hot soup!
HAHHAHAS.
and then we had plenty of CHICKEN,
cause it was damn nice.
and also the charsiew.
admit it sheila,
i cooked it just nice right?
hahaha.
then we had french fries.
OH.
and antaeus's sister and her boyfriend came to join as a while later too!
(:
and porky's seat was VOODOO-ED.
haha.
she kept getting all the splatters from the pan.
and it really was only her,
MOST OF THE TIME.
hahaha.
eating was alright,
fun to do stupid things.
everybody thank antaeus for cleaning the smelly crabs!
HAHA.
then he came back to the table smelling like a CRAB!
gross.
after we ate,
jus, porks, sheila and i went to the arcade.
sheila played one of her favourite games,
TIME CRISIS 3.
there was no TIME CRISIS 4 there.
if not she would have played 4 instead.
she kept winning.
jus played with her,
but she died after a while.
haha.
then me and porks went to play daytona.
ACTUALLY i was WINNING one OKAY!
then ah,
that stupid porks swerved in front of me,
then she won by just a few centimetres!
ARGHH.
im angry with you porks!
HMPF!
after the arcade,
we decided to bowl.
the aim of the game was to get the lowest points to be the ULTIMATE WINNER.
then went to rent the CLOWN shoes.
they were blue and yellow.
yucky colour combination all.
why are all bowling shoes just this UGLY?
then i went to get my number 8 brown ball,
when ah gong did something silly.
he put my name as sotong on the scoreboard thingy.
LIKE WHATTHEHELL.
i'll kill you ah gong!
then everytime it was my turn,
they would be like,
"HEY SOTONG, GO LAH!"
idiots!
and porky won!
ahahahahahha.
as in she got the lowest.
so in actual fact she LOST!
she was the only one who DROPPED the ball 10feet above the ground okay!
i swear the poor floor nearly cracked.
GOODNESS.
she was really funny.
then for the first round,
practically all of us had gutterballs.
like literally.
it was that bad.
ah gong was doing funny stunts, trying to aim all,then nearly falling down three-quarter of the time.and he was playing tricks on all of us too.pretending to congratulate us,then hide his hand behind his ear all.
ah ma was really graceful, and threw the ball lightly.
antaeus was DUMB, using that striking YELLOW ball.
jill was doing funny movements,and we all cheered for those who had gutterballs. jill's idea.haha.
nini was playing well.strikes all over the place okay.haha.
jus gave up playing halfway.then sheila continued.
lari was just being lari.its like watching a bamboo pole play.damn funny!
charles didnt play.but he kept cracking lame jokes.
sheila was fighting with me, because she fed me the last cheezels, then i purposely lick her finger, as in saliva went on her hand.and i was struggling to keep her from cleaning her hands on me, while sheila was trying damn hard to use me as a tissue. SHITTY. of course i lost in the end. she's WAY stronger than me. cannot compare OKAY!
OVERALL, YESTERDAY WAS A LAUGHING DAY. AND CHEERING AND SCREAMING DAY. AND GETTING BURNT DAY.
HAHAHA.
WHEEE.
WE SHOULD HAVE MORE OF THIS.
(:
SHEILA'S BIRTHDAY IS IN 2 HOURS.
SO I'LL WISH HER NOW.
HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHEILAFONGSHUJING!
I LOVE YOU TRUCKLOADS!
((:
10:00:00 pm
* Wednesday, October 4
I LOVE FIGHTING WITH AUDREY IN THE CHURCH TOILET! LET'S HAVE MORE WONDERFUL MEMORIES THERE!WHEEE! (:ohmygoodness.
I TELL YOU.
TODAY WAS FUNNY.
BERNARD, SEAN, EUGENE AND RAYMOND
WERE AT MY PLACE.
THEY WANTED TO BAKE ALL.
THEN,
THEY DIDNT HAVE A TRAY.
I HAVE TO HUNT.
HAHA.
LIKE TREASURE HUNT.
THEN SOME IDIOT NEARLY BROKE
MY WHISK OKAY.
LIKE OH MY SHITTY!
HE BROKE ONE PART OF IT.
AND THEN THE MIX WAS TOO FULL,
SO EVERYTHING OVERFLOWED WHEN IT ROSE.
AND THEN WHEN IT WAS FINALLY COOKED,
THE TOP LOOKED LIKE SHIT,
SO I LEARNED SOMETHING CALLED COVERUP,
FROM BERNARD.
JUST TURN THE CAKE UPSIDE DOWN!
hahaha.
(:
AND THEY EAT AND EAT AND SPILL
ALL OVER THE FLOOR AND TABLE.
GOODNESSS.
BUT IT WAS FUN.
SINGING AND DOING NONSENSE THINGS.
9:25:00 pm
* Tuesday, October 3
i think today was a super FUN day.
met amazing first.
then we found out that the top
i wanted to buy at zara is the same
as what she wanted!
just that i called it an off-shoulder top.
and she called it a knit top.
but its actually an off-shoulder knit top.
whatthehell.
hahaha.
and so then we went to art friend,
AND!
i found the love of my life la!
120 colour pencils!
its a swedish brand.
haha.
but its $298.40.
damn pretty!
I LOVE IT LAH!
some kind soul please buy it for me!
HAHA.
(:
i will love you forever and ever!
and so i was obsessed with
the pretty colour pencils,
and nessa was browsing for her stencil paint thing.
but it was too ex in the end.
and i think i want to buy
the whole art friend down okay!
HOHO.
we went to DAMN ALOT OF PLACES TO SHOP!
after that we went to sheryl lovely's house,
then to amazing's house.
then to chinatown's coffeebean.
WOOLALA.
we ate roast chicken and mushroom pasta,
i drank pure chocolate blended,
she sheryl lovely drank berry something.
haha.
the one DEBB likes.
banana tasting.
and so,
the pictures will say it all.
I SWEAR THAT SHERYL LOVELY LIKES THE BURNT GARLIC BREAD AT COFFEE BEAN. I TELL YOU! IT WAS GROSS.AND SHE FLICKED HALF OF IT ONTO THE FLOOR.AND SHE TASTED IT AND ASKED ME TO DO THE SAME. AND SAID THAT I WOULD REGRET IT.DAMN FUNNY.
AND I THINK SHERYL LOVELY IS DAMN FUNNY.
TRYING TO SNEAKILY TAKE PICTURES OF ME ALL.
I KNOW YOU JUST LOVE ME TOO DAMN MUCH.
AND SO I TOO CAPTURED PHOTOS OF YOU.
CAUGHT IN THE UNGLAM MOMENTS,
AND THE BIMBOTIC MOMENTS.
HAHAHA. i told you.
10:14:00 pm
*
you never know how i feel.
you never know what i want.
i thought parents were supposed to know.
you're supposed to know your child's needs.
but you'll dont.
just constantly bringing me down.
time and time again.
you'll never think of how i would feel.
how i would react.
i know why im crying so badly now.
i thought parents were supposed to spend time with their kids.
to lead them to grow up to be better people.
to help them succeed in life.
to be there for them when they need you the most.
you just make a joke out of my life.
you think i go to church just to get away.
well let me tell you this.
I DONT.
if you even bothered you would have asked me
why i want to be a catholic.
and not mock me everytime i go for mass.
helping out in church,
and just being with the people i love,
and who love me for who i am,
is just an unbelievable feeling.
you'll will never know.
because you dont bother to ask me.
about my day,
about anything.
i study so hard.
and try my best in everything.
just to make you'll proud of me.
that im your daughter.
but you'll have never shown me that.
you'll think that i dont do anything.
its just like church,
there's so many behind the scenes work to do.
that no one notices.
and i do that at home.
clean up after the lazy bums,
who cant even seem to clear their own stuff.
you'll think the house is clean
cause the maid cleaned up is it?
whatthehell.
your two faggard children
take me for a maid.
and everytime i say something,
you'll just think that they are right.
you'll always say that i treat my friends better.
look at how your children treat me at home,
before you compare any bloody hell thing alright.
just because i am the eldest,
i have to bear all the responsibility.
if they dont do their work,
its my fault because i never ask them to.
if the clothes were hanging there,
and no one wanted to take them down,
i end up doing it what.
i end up doing everything in this freaking house
and no one realises it.
fuck.
i hate this.
so much.
i would die already.
if it wasnt a sin.
if i run away,
i know who to run to.
there's only two people.
that no one will look for me there.
but both of them will tell my parents if i did.
who wouldnt?
GOD gave me my parents for a reason.
and i found out that reason the moment FATHER
talked about it that time.
last last month?
yeah.
im going to hang in there.
till im old enough to make my own decisions.
for now i think i shall just resign to EVERYTHING.
AAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
EAT SHIT AND DIE.
ROT LIKE BANANAS AND STINK LIKE TRASH.
12:30:00 am
* Monday, October 2
i think im high.
hahhaha.
yeah man.
went toa payoh with sheila.
and she concluded that people
living in toa payoh are WEIRD.
cause she took mel as an example?
sheilaismad.
and then we were looking for a pair
of black jeans for her.
and i swear toa payoh doesnt have them.
or maybe they werent black enough.
or had weird stuff on them.
and we then concluded that
SINGAPOREANS only wear BLUE jeans.
we found a shop that sold LEVI'S and LEE.
but there was NO SIZE.
SO,
we gave up.
and sat at the bus stop to think.
and IM SMART.
i was smart the whold day,
RIGHT SHEILA?
haha.
and so we decided to go to town.
she wanted to cut her mopheaded hair.
the whole thick bush that she said was itchy.
AND.
the most AMAZING things happened
in the bus.
SHEILA FOUND OUT THAT SHE HAS SHORT LEGS.
GOODNESS.
slow MUCH!
she is short in the first place!
and she said my phone's font is bolded.
then we were both messaging,
and we saw the most hilarious thing on tv!
there were people doing DUMB skids.
and sheila felt do embarassed for them!
you should have seen what they were doing,
and then you would feel the same.
and SO.
we went to far east and the woman twice our size
cut her hair like an ah BENG!
haha.
REALLY.
and she was indecisive
about going back to the shop,
after the washroom trip,
to cut off that UGLY fringe.
HAHA.
BUT,
i persuaded her to go back.
I SWEAR SHE WAS COMPLAINING.
then when we were in town,
sheila got hooked onto the SMURF's song!
HAHAHAHA.
too much blue in her eyes!
and sheilafongshujing.
i think you should go out with me more often.
and learn how to relax!
i shall give you a massage soon alright.
i think you need it!
(:
I LOVE SHEILA TRUCKLOADS!
im going out with nessa and sheryl tomorrow!
i cant wait. get to shop shop shop!
and eat!
HAHA.
WHEN YOU TRY YOUR BEST
BUT YOU DONT SUCCEED
WHEN YOU GET WHAT YOU WANT
BUT NOT WHAT YOU NEED
WHEN YOU FEEL SO TIRED
BUT YO CANT SLEEP
STUCK IN REVERSE
WHEN THE TEARS COME
STREAMING DOWN YOUR FACE
WHEN YOU LOSE SOMETHING
YOU CANT REPLACE
WHEN YOU LOVE SOMEONE
BUT IT GOES TO WASTE
COULD IT BE WORSE
LIGHTS WILL GUIDE YOU HOME
AND IGNITE YOUR BONES
AND I ILL TRY TO FIX YOU
HIGH UP ABOVE
OR DOWN BELOW
WHEN YOU'RE TOO IN LOVE
TO LET IT GO
IF YOU NEVER TRY
YOU'LL NEVER KNOW
JUST WHAT YOU'RE WORTH
LIGHTS WILL GUIDE YOU HOME
AND IGNITE YOUR BONES
AND I WIL TRY TO FIX YOU
TEARS STREAM DOWN YOUR FACE
WHEN YOU LOSE SOMETHING
YOU CANNOT REPLACE
TEARS STREAMING DOWN YOUR FACE
AND I
TEARS STREAM DOWN YOUR FACE
I PROMISE YOU
I WILL LEARN FROM MY MISTAKES
TEARS STREAM DOWN YOUR FACE
AND I
LIGHTS WILL GUIDE YOU HOME
AND IGNITE YOUR BONES
AND I WILL TRY TO FIX YOU
I CRIED
FOR ALL THE THREE TIMES I HEARD THIS SONG.
FOR THE THREE PLAY TIMINGS.
IT WAS SO TOUCHING!
WITH ALL THE PRETTY PRETTY LILIES.
I WOULD RUSH BACK AFTER THAT
TO TAKE CARE OF MY FRONT OF HOUSE.
ALL THREE TIMES.
HAHA.
ALL THE HAPPY MEMORIES
ARE BROUGHT BACK
BY JUST LISTENING TO THIS SONG.
AND ALTHOUGH THE PLAY WAS A STRUGGLE,
WE PULLED IT OFF.
AND IT WAS ALL WORTH IT.
GOSH.
I MISS SJV.
THE REHEARSALS.
9:46:00 pm
* Sunday, October 1
i think this week is going to rock SOO MUCH.
im going shopping with SHEILA TOMORROW!
haha.
WHEE.
then tuesday its shopping again,
with SHERYL AND NESSA!
GOSH.
happy happy!
wednesday is i guess cleaning my room day.
thursday my class is celebrating esther's birthday!
whee!
more yummilicious cake i think.
and food.
kbox-ing again?
hahhaa.
friday is the ordination mass.
OHH. cant wait.
i've never seen an ordination mass before.
but i heard its damn long.
and its when most pple have finished exams!
saturday is church.
then we're celebrating sheila's birthday!
secret location!
(:
sunday is church day too!
i like this week's schedule.
HAHHA.
shop shop shop.
till i drop.
gosh.
im going to be broke.
im off!
to watch tv!
(:
9:23:00 pm